Try it!!! =D

It's nearly 5... In the bloody morning.. What am I doing?

Learning the chorus dance of this song. =P

It's fun!!!
羅志祥 撐腰

Things end...

Really really sad...

The one couple I thought'll last.. Just confirmed on ending their relationship...
Jon and Kate from reality TV show 'Jon & Kate Plus 8' is filing for divorce.. Damn..

Can't imagine how it'll be like for the kids.. poor little ppl..

But really, the scandals and drama aside, Jon and Kate Gosselin are wonderful parents. SHowering their kids with not just love but positive discipline, something loads of kids lack today.

Whether or not the show'll go on, I wish them the best and to always have their kids in mind every step of the way.

This's the song with lyrics expressing how I feel about you and us. Yes, I woke up, I am tired, do get tired when change isn't appreciated and things do end...

妥协 --蔡依林

Won over

Someone absolutely won me over with this... Yes, just this. No, am not weak. Watch the vid, read the lycs and for those of you who's been with me steps of this loong way, you'd absolutely understand.


盧學叡 可不可以愛我

Can't sleep

Time and time I get chances,
Asking myself the age old question...
WHY THE FUCK DID I SAY YES??
I don't think i'm the overly nice kinda person, but I guess when stupidity strikes, there aint much you can do to control the situation there and then.
I spent 2 years working my arse off just to get unappreciated.
I tried my very best but in the end, still have to be the one to say no, that's it.
I'm a pretty damn determined child.. But he has the ability to make me stop trying, give up.
I'm absolutely exhausted.
I thought I'd end up with something.. or things I would think.. 2 years..
Nope, not much. Hasn't heard from him, I have alone moments where I ask myself, where and what have I done again?
Seems like it's always been me in many past relationships...
But somehow, this time around, a little tiny voice in my head (Hasn't heard from her for a long time now) told me.. It isn't YOU this time.. really isn't.
He's just not the one. Too bad, now hush and move on.

I'm on an emotional vacation now. I cried once, and that was it. Didn't anymore, was expecting my usual drama and then running back to him asking for reconcilliation... Didn't as well.

There are a good number of us in this world that has zero understanding of ourselves. Truely, I know many many pals far better than I undersand myself. My emotions avea life of their own and they take me to heights I haven't been to and drop me...

But at times like these, they somehow were the first to rush in and comfort my heart, no torn apart feeling, no tears, no screaming, no wanting to jump off the building. Just solem, I aint happy if that's what you're thinking, but these 2 weeks, I have yet to find any other emotions to express myself. And i truely wish to keep things tt way. I went to work as per normal, I handle myself very well. Did run off to places in the middle of the night though.. Haha.. Went all the way to east coast alone to fascinate myself with one of those plushie machines, pretty good catch..

I'm tired...
Don't pretend you know how I feel cos I've worked years on end to keep a friendship lit, tries my best to step into his life and stay in it.
And I failed, I seldom do in my short 23 years...
But this time, I did.
But really, I tried...

Now that I'm back to being me again, no more trying to be the good grrlfriend, to please people, to smile when told, to feel stumbled upon.. I'm fine. Give me some time and I'll be back to being me.. something I'm trying to regain after 2 years of being HIS me...

Way too fucking much

I just wanna teach, learn to teach, get through my CBTS and CSTD TC...
I'm not a business woman, just wanna teach...

Fuck, how fucking hard is that for anyone to understand?

I'm paying for shit, I don't need to not know when the next payment's not gonna come, just want a stable enough income MONTHLY. It's way too fucking much, you guys are driving me up the wall with things I'm not ready for and don't want at this point. What the fuck's your issue???

Things...

Things moving in and out of my life...
Say what you wanna say before losing the chance of doing so..

What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts

One Weekend

Happened last week:
Adelina's Birthday hangout:

Wednesday wen tout with my bestie to celebrate her birthday, we kinda started having this "Day to ourselves" thing since post secondary school, making sure that not matter what other celebrations we have with others, we will save an evening if not a day during the week of the birthday to hangout. Journey began by meeting up for lunch. This year'sa little different, actually, a BIG GREEN difference, cos Mr Joo came to luch with us and since Adelina allowed it, I have no complains.

After lunch, Mr Joo left for home while Adelina and I waddled to the National Museum Singapore to soak up DA' Vibe... Arty Farty Vibe that is. 'Christian Lacroix the costumier' was in town and that was the one we visited.

Touring the museum, we saw some... Bouncing, Swaying... Very trippy to watch Chendaliers


Trippy Chandeliers at the museum -

Bought her a gorgeous gorgeous bouquet with A single Cabbage Rose and 10 Ranunculus on the side,

symbolising our 11 years together and how she's my one and only. hahaa.. so sweet right.. we should be in a relationship.. but that'll be SICK.. so yeah.. get that image outta your head right now.. thank you.

Friday, 24th of April:

2 years ago, this date, I said yes at the airport, held my tears, called my cousin and cried while laughing. And Mr Joo, this date, same moment, he asked, smiled and went though the gates, hopped on a flight and flew to Australia for his army training. Men... what great timing to pop the question.
Yes laaa... It's THE day we got together, the so-called DAY of my life.. haha.. Night actually.. Almost at 9:30pm.
Time flies, we went though soooo much together, soo much, I'm ready for MOREEE.. haha, no one makes me smile the way he does and no one, really, no one has kept my heat beating for him as long as he has. Well done Mr Joo, you should be proud =)

Super sweet of him, he brought me sunflowers during my Intermediate class at the C.C. so yeap, had quite a few witnesses to my happiness =)

While I got him an umbrella, another one of his MUJI wants with a nice card.

After class, took a cab and went to where else, the airport to have dinner, the same one we had 2 years ago, Popeye's Chicken. Great times..

Saturday:

Watched CATS with Adelina and Yu Da

Yeap, the musical, the O' soo famous musical.

Is it good? Hmmmm.. I'd say it was a great experience, but I found myself sitting comfortably in my box seat, without hairstanding moments. But the casts had loads of interaction with the audience, like there were moments when I was literally less than a meter away from one of the "CATS" climbing on the box sides and audience areas.

Jappie goood movies

Watched a couple of japanese films these weeks, firstly 'Departures'.

Academy Award® Winner for Best Foreign Language Film of the year "Departures" is a delightful and sensitive journey into the heartland of Japan and an astonishingly beautiful look at a sacred part of Japan's cultural heritage.
A premiere symphony orchestra in Tokyo disbands, leaving Daigo Kobayashi (Masahiro Motoki) suddenly unemployed. With wife Mika (Ryoko Hirosue) in tow, he moves back to his home town in the northeastern prefecture of Yamagata. They move into the crumbling remains of his mother’s house, which doubled as the local pub.

Spotting a Help Wanted ad featuring the word “departures,” he is excited about the prospect of trying a new career in the travel industry. He arrives for the interview, curiously eyeing the coffins lining the back wall of the office. The company owner, Sasaki (Tsutomu Yamazaki), hires him on the spot, with only a cursory glance at his resume.

Daigo finally ventures to ask what is involved, exactly, and is stunned to learn what he has gotten himself into: the ceremonial “encoffination” of corpses prior to cremation. Sasaki urges him to take the job, proffering large amounts of cash. He’s getting older, and needs someone to carry on the tradition.

Too embarrassed to tell his wife about his conversation-stopping profession and admit that he has fallen in love with the townsfolk, Daigo vainly tries to keep his new life secret. As their relationship hangs in the balance, the big question is how he’s going to react to surprising news she brings, as an encoffineer, as a husband, as a son and as a human being. It is Daigo’s turn to deal with life and death among the people who are dearest to him.

A story of love, of discovery, of revelation and of the transcending human spirit, "Departures" will linger in your heart and mind long after viewing.

2nd Movie is "Detroit Metal City" and when I reveal what other leading characters the lead actor, some of you reading might be shocked.. absolutely SHOCKED.. hahahaa

Detroit Metal City (DMC) is a quickly rising independent Death Metal band. They garner fame by performing wild live shows and writing songs filled with hate, violence, and rape. The band is fronted by Sōichi Negishi who takes on the stage name Krauser II. On stage he is a wild-unchained beast. Off-stage he is a tranquil, tender-loving person who enjoys Swedish Pop music. He hates himself as Krauser and his two personalities collide making his private life very difficult.

Played by Ken'ichi Matsuyama, who is known better as "L".
Yes peeps, THE "L" of the "Death Note" movie series... here's the tranformation... =)

Yup, it's the same person, it's a really cute and relaxing show, go watch them both actually, both booming with japanese culture in absolutely different manners but totally worth the ka-ching. Enjoy!!!

ISP 2009

The First ever ISP held in sunny Singapore =)
For once we have more participants than most of our neighbouring countries.

15 locals, 1 Phillippines & 1 Thailand.

Sweeeeet, which means I've saved greatly in terms of airfare, accomodation and such such...

It was a grueling long 6 days with fun moments all over.

Quite a few peeps I knew from Crestar and Lasalle, it was great seeing them all, JinYi and See Hung whom I've longed to dance with again, happy happy, although it wasn't with Miss Lee, but I'm sure they'll agree to the fact that we had wonderful moments "tearing around the room" as Miss Teo would put it. I watched them dance as seniors, growing up at Crestar Marine Parade, great to be able to do class together again. Had a couple other dancers like Grace Wee and Joni Tan who were gorgeous gorgeous dancers, of course, not missing out the little ball of giggles Shu Hui who's the youngest of this ISP. Also made new pals, Patricia and Sophatai, whom I wish I'll get to take classes with when I get the time off to travel to them in the near future.

All in all, I've learnt so much and as Miss Penny said "Everytime I finish a teachers' course/syllabus course of any manner, I'd feel like I could conquer the world!" haha, pretty true that one. Exactly how I've felt since Friday, I went teaching my RAD Inter ladies at the C.C. the same day my course ending, I actually finished teaching the Inter Dance within the 1 1/2Hrs of class. Good grrl me.. My poor poor grrls, they really suffered cos it was a school day. But, best part, they looked good doing it, not the usual blah blah... As many teachers would agree, mostly the 1st time a new dance is taught, it usually doesn't look fantastic.

But yeah, they looked good and I'm happy..

Pictures pictures!!!

The ballet teacher who laid my foundation for ballet

Miss Tan Eng Ai

ISP Group 2009, Palais Dance Studio.

Teddy's name's BeBe (Doubtful spelling),

Charlotte's baby bear, who's B'day she celebrates..haha

ARMPIT HAIR!!

cum MOUSTACHE

With Tricia's Baby grrl =)

Thank you ladies, I couldn't have asked for a better ISP group, I've learnt so much from everyone and it's wonderful to know many of us are gorgeously passionate about what we're doing and wanna do. Hope we'll all score well enough to carry on to the next phase together!!