Dammit

I need to be locked out of my own Past Entries.
Any Comp-Guru reading?
Emo-ing again...
Went back to my older entries and saw how happy/ unhappy we were
and how strongly I believed it'll all work out.
And then what happened...??!?
I cannot stop the filmroll in my head.
My eyes tear up and I wanna run into something so my heart'll stop hurting.
And seriously I hate so much, how I can no longer swear when I want on facebook...
Cause the ka-zillion other words in the dictionary doesn't work half as well as a good combination of FUCK, SHIT and FUCK.

Okay, the filmroll kinda paused itself. Better roll myself into bed so my life can continue....
Bye